Ice ice baby

Sometimes all you need is a peter pan collar seethrough blouse with raccoon print and a frappé.

The basket case

Busy day of work that ends with a couple of pictures of my amazing "breakfast club" tank top.

Great movie characters and theme song.

Yeah, I guess if I could play a character in that movie, it would've been "a basket case princess" ...
The weirdness of Ally Sheedy looking "pretty in pink" like Molly Ringwold.

And you?

Crossroads

I've only wore this dress for a music festival and decided to make it work appropriate yesterday.
Anyway, I work at a music academy, so my dress code is open to creativity and of course, lots of Rock and Roll.

A little denim and small accessories did the job... no pun intended.

Working Girl

First day of my new part time job as a sales manager and store supervisor. You can never go wrong with the right accessories to make a statement and keep it classy.
For me its animal print, gold accesories and bright colored lips to dress up a pair of Jeans.

PERMANENT ACCESORIES

We all have our favorite accesories that we use over and over. They become part of us and sometimes serve as a statement of who we are and what we like to proyect toward others.
I have three favorite Accesories, one is semi-permanent and the others are going to be there for life.
I´m talking about my tattoos and piercing.

They have very personal meanings serving as reminders of important recent changes in my life, and I'm very proud to wear them everyday.

The advice I can give about acquiring such "accesories" is to really think them thoroughly, because they dont have to be a "trend" like all those triangles, anchors, infinity signs and owls I´ve seen around. They have to be your best accesory, reflecting who you are and your lifestyle.

We live in a country where tatoos and piercing are associated with "gangs" and to have them can turn into a big issue  when applying for certain jobs, so it is important to consider if it is worth it.
When your mind is made up, obviously look for someone with the talent to create something unique and classy.

For me its about words and symbols more than full colored images. I admire them as art, but wouldn´t actually have a complete sleeve tattooed on my arm.
I love how the ones I have compliment my outfits and I don't have to cover them.

So even if its hard to put on lipstick with the lip ring on, I have mastered the art quite succesfully in time for all those lip color trends for spring 2014 and I'm not planning on taking it off for a while.

photograph by Doña Barbara FOLK magazine

photograph by Stevan Marroquin (my tatoo artist)

photograph by Diana Tanchez, blogger Petitgraphie blog

DRAW ME LIKE ONE OF YOUR FRENCH GIRLS

Before photography, there were painted protraits and illustrations...

That is why I felt so honored when this talented artist wanted to draw me.
I never thought of myself for "artsy "material, but then again beauty is in the eye of the beholder and she did such an amazing job, it was worth sharing.

Thank you Jess Perez ,for this amazing piece of art.
if you want to check out more about her work

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Jess -Pérez-illos-and-art/447006745369740

"Pretty in pink" by Jess Pérez

"CULTURA"

I have the great gift of amazing and talented friends. One of these amazing people is Edgar Navarro, An artist and jewelry designer who not only has the talent to create amazing pieces, but also looks great doing it. 

Edgar Navarro, artist and jewelry designer

He chose a very controversial theme for his art exposition "What It’s Like To Be a Ladino in Guatemala" and blended it with his personal experiences to create a mixture of color and texture with a message.

It took me a while to get there, as you know I get off work at eight, no time to go home and change. So I put on some bright coral lipstick, a leather trimmed coat and in the wise words of Tim Gunn I had to “make it work”. The best accessory someone can wear in time of need, is “attitude” so I packed a bunch of it and like always I made my “fashionably late entrance”.

I will not get into a political debate over the definition of "ladino" and all of the different connotations of class and race this term brings along. I want to focus more on the personal experiences of the artist and the gorgeous model, who also happens to be a very good friend, Gerardo Cordova. The esthetics of the whole project can be admired as soon as you set foot in the gallery. The logistics of course had to be done by his amazing assistant and talented fashion designer Alexander Ayala, creating an atmosphere of class and sophistication that surrounded the whole gallery.

The color, the sensuality of the images and the two dimensional pieces along with exquisite Jewelry from ESCARLATA (his own brand of  semi precious stones and silver based jewels) pops right into the eyes of the audience who just can’t stop staring. The idea of not only acquiring an amazing photograph with the androgynous innocence of model Gerardo’s beauty and the amazing ESCARLATA jewels is simply breathtaking.

 

my sister, JFD photographer ,Astrid Anzueto with

Alexander Ayala Fashion Designer

When I attend such events, I like to experience art in my very own way. I just stare and interpret the emotions I get from it. This piece in particular caught my eye, not only because it sits in the middle of the room as a beautiful centerpiece, but because of the candles it had a mystical air that quickly drew me to it.  His work is profoundly personal and I felt it when he explained the meaning.

"It is called AQUI TAMBIEN DUELE (here it hurts too)

,..It’s like a kind of altar to all that has made me who I am today. The color of the candles is for the three types of "maiz" (corn) which was and still is the basic diet of the indigenous population. The red sandals at the foot of the chair are for the oppression suffered and the blood they have shed through the history of our country. The big wooden chair has two meanings, the Spanish side of my heritage and the other one... the other one... this chair was supposed to be part of the furniture when we moved in (I knew he was speaking of a recent breakup) 

"...coping with this loss, it inspired me to create this project, as you can see..."

And with the quiet elegance that he is known for, he spoke no more. The silence that fell after these words told me it was the end of the answer and that he had revealed something very personal. I said nothing and continued along contemplating his art and admiring him even more, not only for the talent but for the humanity in him.

Pink lips & black loafers

I focus on the little details that make The  ordinary ," extraordinary".

Quote of the day

Fashionably Depressed

Once upon a time there was this girl.

This girl is me or was me. I'm a grown up now, or at least I'm trying to be.

My life was never average.

I've always been different because I never wore the same clothes everyone else did and if I did, I tried to style them in a way that you couldn’t tell it was the same garment.

Popularity was never one of my biggest assets because I was "weird"

Thank God Glasses are in right now, and I can wear them proudly instead of torturing my eyes with contact lenses like I used to.

My taste in music has always been rock and roll oriented. That I have my father to thank for, all those nights with the Beatles, led zeppelin and the king "ElvisPresley" gave me a good base for my grungy punk high school days and my indie experimental college years.

One of my biggest dreams was to form a band and I had the chance to do it. I was once the lead singer of my garage happy punk band which later was nothing more than a memory thanks to my "saved" cool Christian emo phase.

My love for animals has taken me on emotional rollercoasters all of my life. I know reality and once you have stared into the dark side of the cruelty that humans put upon animals, you can never go back. That’s why I will never work or volunteer for any nonprofits again.

My family is completely dysfunctional. All families are like that you will say.

But mine belongs in a reality show or a very dark sitcom.

Still I manage to get along with them, not try to fit in, but just to go with the flow.

My friends...

A bunch of rock stars, models, bloggers, fashion designers, artists, freaks, geeks and the whole "Chex mix" of interesting people that make my life worth living

My love life... hmmm let’s just leave it in "peculiar and ironic", the eternal struggle. 

Currently in love and filled with hope.

My mental state.

This is where the fun begins.

Anxiety attacks and Depression.

I don’t even remember when it started, it just happened. I lost complete control of my life and fell in this downward spiral. The anxiety got the best of me. Up to thepoint where I had to give up my job and my college studies. My already confusing and complicated relationship went down the drain and I completely snapped.

I saw a couple of therapists per week, lost two part time jobs and my previous fashion blog to a "cold war" like custody battle with my ex. To make matters worse, my parents separated. Yeah I know I’m an adult I shouldn’t care but in LatinAmerican countries even if your parents are crazier than you, we stand by them until marriage, a scholarship or a job makes us move out of the house.

I stopped eating as a punishment for being such a horrible person. It was not about the being skinny part, but about the control of something in my life. Together with the partying, the drinking and all the other things that come with destructive behavior, I made myself terribly sick, to the point where I had to be hospitalized for my ulcer.

The most painful part of the whole "war of the roses" kind of thing, was that they blamed me for everything that had happened and guilt, my friend, is one hell of burden to carry. 

No job, no family, no boyfriend, no money, no blog. My life as I knew it was over in the blink of an eye and there was nothing I could do about it.

So I did what every girl in my position would do.

I started shopping like crazy, 

Not caring if the size was right or if already owned the same item in another color. I was hoarding fashion trends and it is not as glamorous as it sounds. My room was unlivable and my life was beginning to be a pain in the ass too. Plenty of thoughts about suicide and  how maybe that could be the answer to all that secret suffering, or at least I thought nobody knew I was going through so many things at the same time. 

This is the End I thought, either I commit myself to an institution, rehab facility and probably be medicated for life or I'm going to die.

So instead of cutting myself like I used to in high school I decided to embrace the best things in me.

My passion for music, my chick flick heroine attitude and of course my love for fashion.

One day I got up, put on my best outfit, the most flawless makeup and a killer pair of heels and decided to face the world.

I decided to curate my life

To take out everything that was holding me back to the past, including my closet.

My closet was the metaphor for my life. It was a big pile of new clothes with tags still on, old wrinkled and unwashed pieces, timeless basics and horrifying one time use trends.

So as the first step to curate my life, I curated my closet and like a Robert Frost poem

"...and that has made all the difference...”

It has been a long process and sometimes I just want to throw everything away.

But I know there are timeless pieces in that closet, in my life that are worth all the hassle, all the work.

So each day I struggle with myself, my guilt, my memories, my traumas, my surroundings.

Although, there was something I could always count on,something so personal, so Karol, that no one and nothing can take away from me....

 My Style.

So this is why I decided to write this blog, it’s personal and it’s very important to me.

 I want to show you, it doesn’t matter if you’re dealing with mental issues or family and love issues. You can move on and regain control of your life if you accept who you really are.

No matter what that is or if others see it as valuable

Because sometimes looking good, can make you feel good.

I see fashion and style as way to empower and believe in yourself.

So join me in this journey I call "my everyday life".